Have you ever said to yourself "My life sucks" after you read how things are going in my life as of now, maybe you'll think different. Im not saying at all that i have te worst life in the world, yes, i know there are worse out there, but im sure you'll say "Damn..." as soon as your done reading this. I am a recovering addict.
It started a few years ago, everything was perfect in my life i had an amazing girlfreind of 6 years, i had a good paying job, i was going to school, everything was looking up for me, but i must have done horribly wrong by somthing in the universe because this amazing like was about to be turned all kinds of ways upside-down. It started when my girlfriends best freind came to me telling me that my girl was seeing somone else from her job. That tore me up inside so badly, and only if that was all, it wasnt just one guy from her job she was seeing... it was three. So when i went to confront her about these aligations, before i could even get out a word she tells me that she wanted to break up. So after she moved all her stuff out of the house, a week later i hurt my back seriously at work to the point i needed to be out for a long time. I was on workmans comp for a long period of time, in and out of different doctors offices. In the mean time, while going to these doctors, they were giving me pain medications. Obivously i got addicted to them, which then got worse and worse. I then found a girl whom i thought was the perfect girl, i thought all my heart ake was over, i was wrong. She also was into the opiates (Pain Meds) and other drugs, and she got me into doing other things, cocaine, crack, ect. Well while we were doing these things together things just kept getting worse for me as far as health goes. One night she passed out on my bed, and i kept on doing Oxy and coke together (Makeshift Speedball) [i know not a smart move at all i was such a dumbass] Well of course i wake up in an ambulance.... I Od'd. The girl i was with at the time said i fell to the floor convulsing and seizing, my eyes rolling into the back of my head, and foaming out of the mouth. After all of that it was then i said to myself i need to stop this. After i left the hospitol and went home to my place, the girl was there cleaning out her stuff, and saying "Ive been cheating on you, ive been cheating on you with 3 other guys just like your ex. Hope you die next time" that was the jist of what was said at least. So once again, heart broken, but this time an addict on top of things, and an addict of so many things. Things were not looking good at all my parents hated me, i had no girlfriend, my freinds disowned me, everything was just not good. Then to make things better, my mom comes to me and says "You need to move out of the house, your cousin is being forced to live with us by dyfus and they said you are not alowd to live in the house while he is here" So i then had to start living at a freind of the familys house. But as bad as everything seems, was the best thing to happen to me yet. The freind of the family that i was being forced to live with said to me, that he knows how i was feeling and explained to me that he went threw almost the same perdicament with things. He says to me the first thing to get you off of the drugs. So he brings me to the methadone clinic that he has been going to for 10 years. I start going everyday once a day for my dose. and as the days go by i start feeling good about things. i start feeling better. And so far it has been 6 months, i havent touched any drugs but the methadone that im prescribed to, and on top of that helps the pain in my back. OH! i forgot to even mention in the middle of ALLLL of this bad stuff, i ended up having to get a spinal fusion witch was anouther bad part of my life as far as my health and after getting the spinal fusion i got thrown out of my pain management doctor for having other drugs then just the pain meds he was prescribing me. so i should actually still be on pain medication as prescribed by a doctor, but becasue i was kicked out im not. So the methadone also acts as a pain reliever also for my back so it is having two different possitive effects on me. Im still not alowd to live at home, but i havent touch drugs in 6 months, i feel healthy, i have gained 30 lbs, and have a settlement comming to me hopefully soon so i will finally have some money to get my own place. So that is pretty much everything as of right now, but im going to be letting you all know how things are going, i hope to get some positive comments from some of you maybe some things to possibly bring my spirits up, beileve me i need it. Untill next time guys!
